Hello everybody! So last weekend, I canceled my tanning membership. I wasn't even really that tan and I was only tanning for a few weeks, but I came to realize, I just simply don't need it.
Yes, I'm a very pale person and yes, I look WAY better with a tan, but I have decided I'm not willing to put myself through all the risks that comes with tanning in the tanning beds. It's winter, and even though this is the best time to "get tan", I'm just not feeling it.
I used to get bullied at school for how pale I was and I still hear it from some idiots today. Like, I know I'm fucking pale but honestly who even gives a fuck. & Yes I sort of look like a gothic person every time I wear black clothing, but guess what, I'M NOT! I honestly think my resting bitch face adds to that conception too, but it's not like I can really help the way I look. Especially to others, who are finding every reason possible to bring me down. (For some fucking reason, I don't know.)
What I really need to work on is honestly loving myself. I sometimes do things or don't do things because I'm living in fear of what people might think of me. I've been bullied while I was in school a lot for practically everything. How pale I am, how skinny I am, how I have resting bitch face, how I have small boobs, how I'm a twig, how I have hairy arms, etc. People have verbally ripped me to shreds of how I looked. I'm tired of it, and I'm tired of putting myself in risk of skin cancer for being pale.
I'm not going to lie, I honestly do think I look better while I'm tan. I feel like I look more alive rather than a walking corpse. I'm starting to realize though that I don't mind living in a Tim Burton kind of world. In practically every one of his movies, there's pale people. Like, VERY pale people.. and they look absolutely gorgeous. So why don't I just embrace my pale skin and show the world that being pale is okay?!
So that's my goal. I can pull of being comfortable in my own skin and I CAN wear black and look like no one else but myself. About 80% of my wardrobe is black, and I love it. Black is defiantly my favorite color to wear but I do sometimes like to pop some color in with it as well. I prefer black on black though, that's more my style.
& If Emma Roberts can pull of being pale but still wear black on black, then fucking so can I. She's my inspiration. Pale people who love wearing black UNITE!
Yes, I did put this blog in my 'Beauty' category because being natural and comfortable in your own skin is BEAUTIFUL!